back if anyone even noticed I was gone. hahaha. Was in rehab. Thats right. I did it. Finally. Took the time to get better, and study the Qabalah. I feel better. Thanks for all the energy folks. :)
I was asked to retract my statements about the church that gave up on me.
Anubis, thoth, and maat guide me.
I will see it through to the end.
Ive lost a few followers.
Sonofabitch. I neeed to write more.
When faced with ego annihilation, we want to run. But we mustnt. Be brave KILL YOUR EGO. be as a block of salt dropped on the sea. Become one with the Divine.
Sonsofbitches. I need an apprentice that can do seer work for me. And other theurgic tasks.
Fucking bible belt. This oughtta be tough.
Balance. It is the key to this life. On the tree of life, St. Crowley shows that from malkuth to tiphareth are the 3 paths. Their Hebrew letters spell the word qesheth. Or bow. This is the rainbow above the veil of Isis. It can also mean bow like what you shoot at stuff. Smack in the middle shooting up is samekh. Represented by the ART card. It is ruled by the AAROW shooting to the universal balancing factor Tiphareth. Here we find all sacrificed gods. The arrow being saggitarius, is half man half beast. Balance if you have a tarot set find this card and meditate. I believe this is accurately portrayed in the CoL symbol of the pentagram and its inverse in the infinity symbol. We balance the spiritual with the beast. Perfect alchemical union.
Sorry I havent posted in awhile. I have been homeless and trying to figure things out. I was staying with my only remaining close blood and i guess he knew i knew of his ……. I also developed a drinking problem knowing my own blood didnt want me there. So they did what any family would do. Sent me to the streets. His last words to me was that he hopes i slit my wrists and die. So i cursed him and his house and left. Now I has nowhere to go. Sigh. Either way…im back. 93 93/93